i tare my heart open.............

so much is changing around me.. only 7 more days of summer school which is AMAZING! i quit my job at m.fredrics which im really unsure about. i really didnt want to leave but i wasnt making any money. im always working then hanging out and being a mom for my friends.. i want to be the one that everyone watches for once.. i dunno if thats selfish or not..

soccer is going to be here sooner that i think which im excited.. my last year. and i wanna play my abosolute best. aly and i are ok again which im really glad about i missed my bob lol

ash and i are closer than ever!! im her mom lol and shes my crazy lil daughter that is an alcoholic lol

haha i love hanging out with jay and jeff again.. i really love all of those guys and i LOVE LOVE LOVE going to santa barb.




im so depressed latley i really want someone to share my life with.. i need a guy who really cares and will be there for me .. im so over the high school thing.. i need something real ..